I am a Scientist
(Scholastic Gold key)
I am a scientist.
I wonder how things work,
What it would feel like to get a Ph.D. degree,
And what truffles taste like
I see through my originally 20/100 but corrected vision,
A whiteboard covered with Greek letters and integrals,
And the hordes of people who come and go
That I will never get to know.
I wish I could download knowledge into my brain
I wish we all had a Ctrl-Z button
I wish I could stop time
I am a confused, captivated scientist.
I pretend to know things that I don’t
In the name of keeping a conversation going,
Yet I pretend that I’m dumber than my true self
To better teach and explain.
I worry about imperfection,
While pining for the sleep lost for better grades
And faux-paper practice tests.
I am afraid of the worn-carpet hallway upstairs
And the sharp stillness that it offers at two past midnight
When I am time’s last opponent.
I cry about low definition videos
And over-priced textbooks
I am a compulsive, curious scientist.
I understand how RSA encryption works,
And how to cook a good Thanksgiving meal.
I find joy in not having anything to do,
Finding a worthy pencil,
And binge-reading XKCD and Peanuts.
I am just another high-schooler.
I am an aspiring scientist.